Change has been in the air. It occurred to me that while spaceman is busy doing what he loves to do - creating wiggle room in my life, creating space - I can relax more since I have less run-around to do.
He doesn't like when I do the dishes, not because I do them poorly, but because he considers that his job. It's nice. When I come home from work, dinner is taken care of. Every day, the dishes are kept up. A week before he moved in, our dishwasher broke down. I haven't missed the thing and don't intend on getting it fixed any time soon since he prefers to wash the dishes by hand.
All these years our family nemesis has been that giant sink full of dishes. Then practically overnight, it's a non-issue. Now when I cook, it's because I feel inspired. Usually that's breakfast on the weekend.
With my newfound free time, I've taken up painting. Of course, I'm painting a sunset, based off one of my own photos. It's amazingly fun, and turning out fairly decent. <3
I've also been waking up earlier, not to get to work any earlier, but to do hatha yoga and meditation before work. Combining that with eating less meat and more salads, my sleep quota is coming down. I think I'm on an astonishing 3 or 4 day streak of waking up before my alarm goes off. It even happened one day when I set it an hour early. This is unheard of for me.
If I dream at night, the first thing I do upon waking is record them in an app on my phone. So far, I haven't taken the additional time to analyze them, but some are getting interesting, including one dream with a multitude of armadillos - not an everyday dream symbol. Oh! And the other day, I dreamed I was flying!!! I cannot recall the last time I flew in my dreams. Flying has always been something I do when in higher spirits. It's a very good omen.
What I haven't been doing is going out drinking (except my work Christmas party *ahem*) or spending much time with friends... time that was usually filled with less sober activities. I'm not toking it up daily, or even weekly for that matter. I'm kind of a different me, but the same. I like it, especially the deeper sleep part. Knowing exactly how bad insomnia has affected me through the years, I'm always so very thankful not to have it anymore.
Oh, and I made so many changes, I accidentally found myself 3 days into a no-caffeine binge... I didn't mean to. I guess I just felt alert enough and didn't think to drink any. Go figure. But rest assured, I broke that trend with a cup of green tea after having lunch with a co-worker and eating a potato based lunch, which made me sleepy.
All this and it wasn't exactly smooth waters when I first started out. I just kind of threw myself, purposefully, into a whole host of changes at once. In the past I've been careful not to bite off more than I could chew. But it occurred to me that while that strategy might have seemed wise in the past, now it just seemed like all it may have done was not change enough and leave me too close to unchanged, which leads to relapse of old bad habits. So I decided to bite off more than I would normally attempt to chew. Maybe it's the leaving behind of a great many old habits, to cleave myself to the new.... but I also know that without spaceman's efforts to alleviate some of my normal load, I'm sure this would have all come crashing down on me a week or less into it.
Instead, I'm starting to fly again in my dreams. <3
