Seems like when it rains, it pours. Yesterday was a pretty good day, listening to classic rock tunes while working, feeling caught up finally, and working away at my next task. Then something bit me in the ass, code-wise, so to speak. The realization of it just threw me for a loop. I was really frustrated, to the brink of tears. This never happens at work. I'm not usually that easy to upset, even in the midst of bad news. But boy was I fuming mad, at the situation and how much I had tried to prevent it and still failed. My anger boiled over into tears when no one was looking. I was wiped the rest of the day and evening, emotionally drained.
Then early, early this morning I had a nightmare involving Standingmoon, a tornado, and the loss of her life. In all the dreams I've ever had about tornadoes, no one has ever actually been harmed. But she was swept away and I was devastated. That's a horrible feeling to wake up to. It's been lingering all morning, that and a headache.
Today is our work Christmas party. We're going to a breakout room, then dinner with spouses/SO's after that. All I want to do is go home and go back to sleep. I don't know what's going on, but my dreams keep pestering me about Standingmoon. And work is frustrating, too. My life is pretty calm on all the other fronts, so I'm very appreciable for that. Just not sure why my subconscious is making me deal with her absence as harshly as it is. This makes 3 dreams in the past couple weeks now.
On the other hand, it's good my dreams are speaking to me strongly again like tarot readings and such. When spaceman moved in, I switched to a new deck, a Mayan oracle. It's amazing and perfect for me at this point in my spiritual evolution. I suspect I'm being eased into closer contact with my higher self and guides. Reentry is a bit rough at the moment. Some self-TLC is in order. Thankfully, I have a nice stretch of time off work coming up soon. I can't wait. :)
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